Tragedy, Sorrow and Birthdays

We are now in March!! I still can't believe this year is moving on so rapidly... its scary true!
I haven't written anything in a while and I can feel it in me. So much is happening around me that it is very difficult to keep up and process and focus. I have to get some of it down...
My sister found out in the beginning of Feb somewhere she needed an operation for her Endo that was/is causing her so much pain and discomfort... 
My boss found out that her sister had terminal cancer, that she found out mid 27th of Feb or round about there...
On the 28th of Feb (my parents wedding anniversary) my dad's car broke down on the R300 highway...
Leon arrange for all the family and friends to go to the mount for supper on her birthday - that same day my boss's sister past away, Natalie had her op on the 7th (3days after her birthday) and the operation results where not what we hoped.
I found out my friend is being hospitalised too and i'm not even sure what i can do about any of these feelings...
Then Aidan's birthday is next week, along with my dad and julian and so many other people... 
I feel lost! I feel depressed!
its not that i'm feeling this way for attention. 
I'm just so overwhelmed by the flood of emotions that everyone around me is shedding and i can't deal with all it. I'm a highly emotional person and i'm myself feeling fragile cause I'm in the middle of all these emotions - like a pool of sorrow that is enveloping me - surrounding the positivity i'm feeling and engulfing it with one foul swoop. Everything and Everyone around me is changing, moving or falling Ill, Life is happening so fast - when did i become such an adult?
Learning again every week, I am.


I've learnt that people perish but they leave behind a life of memories and we need to capture them as much as possible so that they are not forgotten, that we are not forgotten.

I've learnt that people perish when they don't have the vision to see potential, in themselves, around them or for others.

I've learnt that I do not live to please others, I live to be pleased with how I have lived!

And How i've lived till today, have sculpted me to be who I am so i should embrace my feelings and take strength in knowing that I feel this way cause I'm alive.

Neen