Lost

As consciousness becomes awareness I still have an ache, a feeling of devastation and helplessness. My soul feels empty and insignificant while the muscles and meat of my body feels like melting into the floor. There are no lights in this secluded room of mine. I find no door, no sound, no comfort… no acceptance. I don’t feel panicked or feel any sort of loss… just invisible. So much so that screaming and shouting and ranting won’t matter, cause I’m invisible. The exhaustion I am experiencing is continuous, persistent and numbing. Even when I have no outside influences that obstruct my sleep and rest… I am unable to do so. What is wrong with me… why do I feel this way… Lord help me, I’m in pain.