Lost in the question - where am I?

I am finding the frustration that is inside of me a burden and i am not sure how to go about not letting this feeling manifest into a permanent fixture in my life.

Through the years and I'm sure that over the years you everyone at some point has asked or faced the question who am I? what have i been put here to be? Where am i supposed to be?
Then as sure as bob we leave school and more often than not you are told that your Journey of Life has just begun. Your journey... of: Self Discovery?

So off you go when you leave school. Either to Varsity or Tech or College or you start working. Some people take off to "find themselves" and to discover what their interests are. I didn't know what interested me. I loved music, writing, hiking, cycling, drawing, cooking and baking. I wasn't necessarily fabulous at any of them, but i like it all the same. I realised with i started clubbing i liked to dance. I learnt through my life experience what interested me and what didn't.

Fundamentally it's all about what you expose yourself to, or what you were exposed to. Through those experiences you find you likes, dislikes and passions. Sometime your views change or get altered again because you are learning new things and forming your own opinions. Making decisions and formulating strategies and solutions for your own life. Again being taught in this huge, ongoing school that is Life.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about the question "where am I" and my mind has done turns, flips and bounced around in my skull as I've been pulling this question apart. Man i Miss Dawid Venter... He would know how to help me with this. But he is unfortunately not here...

no matter how i have torn this apart, i still can only believe that i am right when i says what I've learnt. I'm 31 in a week... and i might not have much wisdom, but i believe that i have rationalised this for myself. Therefore I'll say that I haven't 'found' myself... because I'm right here and there is nothing to be found. instead i truly believe that the only thing i can do about that is to mould myself, create myself, paint myself and make myself the person i want to be. The person i would like to be... doesn't this just make so much more sense?

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