Here we are...

My life is upside down, my heart a pulsating rush of irregular beats and I have the most incredible life.
Regret is not something I have considered in my life as it would then change the outcome of the person I am today. This person I see in the mirror, the one that looks back at me; I am happy with.
‘Life is a school’ as my beautiful Dawid always said, and boy has this school taught me some things. It still teaches me every day. Being a mother of three children is probably the most challenging thing in my life. I never set my sights on being a mother of one, let alone three. Yet here I am, against all measures and precautions.
My life began for me in High school when I found myself and who I was. I think for most people this is the case. After being hurt in those child-like manners you expect and yet can’t deal with; you look back at the 14 year old version of yourself and you have to smile. But for me, it was more than most… a reoccurrence in my journey that would reveal itself over and over again. Pain and hurt that hasn’t left my side and has moulded me to the person I am today. Being the second eldest of four children I’ve always battled and lost to my siblings. Not being good in sports and academic endeavours but socially and creatively I have always been able to sit a notch above the rest; Sometimes a bit over top for some but still entertaining none the less for others.

I have never been one to show emotions, and have been told that I’m cold; heartless and that I have no compassion. Yet, there have been times that I have been told I’m over emotional. I don’t know how to consolidate the two extremities. I feel emotions deeply… I cry when people win prizes on TV or when something happy happens in TV series… YET I don’t get frightened for scary movies and expect the worse in movies that are drama’s and therefore I am able to prepare myself. Yet, after watching this movie I can not sleep because I’m so deeply affected.
As I said, I’m being schooled by this thing called life and I learning lesson every day. I hope that my lessons are lessons that I can share and that are relatable to others. I hope you’ll join me on my journey from past and present and to the future

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